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Paul Lake Was Manchester Born, A City Fan From Birth His Footballing Talent Was Spotted At A Young Age And, In , He Signed Coveted Schoolboy Forms For City Only A Short Time Later He Was Handed The Team Captaincy An International Career Soon Beckoned And, After Turning Out For The England Under And B Teams, He Received A Call Up To The England Training Camp For Italia Despite Missing Out On A Place In The Final Squad, He Suitably Impressed The Management, With Bobby Robson Earmarking Him As An England Captain In The Making As A Rising Star Paul Became A Target For Top Clubs Like Manchester United, Arsenal, Spurs And Liverpool, But He Always Stayed Loyal To His Beloved Club, Deeming Maine Road The Spiritual Home At Which His Destiny Lay But Then, In September , Disaster Struck Paul Ruptured His Cruciate Ligament And Sustained The Worst Possible Injury That A Footballer Can Suffer And So Began His Nightmare Neglected, Ignored And Misunderstood By His Club After A Succession Of Failed Operations, Paul S Career Began To Fall Apart Watching From The Side Lines As Similarly Injured Players Regained Their Fitness He Spiralled Into A Prolonged Bout Of Severe Depression With An Enforced Retirement From The Game He Adored, The Death Of His Father, And The Collapse Of His Marriage, Paul Was Left A Broken Man Set Against A Turning Point In English Football, I M Not Really Here Is The Powerful Story Of Love And Loss And The Cruel, Irreparable Damage Of Injury Of Determination, Spirit And Resilience, And Of Unfulfilled Potential And Broken Dreams

3 thoughts on “I'm Not Really Here: A Life of Two Halves

  1. Paul Paul says:

    Before I read this book, I must admit that I d never heard of Paul Lake Sorry Paul.I saw the reviews for this book on here and thought I d give this one a try as I love anything football related I was concerned that having not heard of Paul Lake, I d either not really get into it, or I d quickly lose interest I needn t have worried about that because, to use a cliche, I could not put this book down.The first half of the book follows Lakey s beginnings with high hopes and dreams of representing his beloved Manchester City and, one day, England, representing his country on the world stage at a World Cup His dream of playing at Maine Road for Manchester City becomes reality and is upbeat and joyful The second half of the book is a desperately sad story, so well written by Paul Lake that you genuinely have absolutely nothing but sympathy and immense sadness for such a talented footballer who had his dreams snatched from him at such an early stage of what should have been a long and successful career at the very top He talks of his struggles with injury and depression that follows and it keeps you gripped till the end.This isn t your run of the mill, former premier league footballer autobiography with the odd memory of such and such game, how many millions they ve made etc This is a guy who simply had a great love for the game and desperately wanted to play the game he loved unlike a lot of modern day footballers who play the game for the love of money.If you love the game and you enjoy reading autobiographies or anything football related, read this book I m a Liverpool fan, you don t have to be a fan of Manchester City to find this book a gripping read.

  2. Jammack Jammack says:

    This is a superbly written account of a player s struggles with a career defeating injury as well as his club, who he felt mismanaged his treatment You warm very soon to Paul Lake even after reading only a few pages I couldn t put this down It s a captivating story and despite knowing the outcome you are with him hoping that by the time you reach the end of the book a positive outcome might be possible It s a proper book and not just another footballer s tale Sadly Paul Lake is not alone in how his injury was mistreated with an outcome that was doomed to failure There are many other players of his era who had similar experiences Of course very few accounts come to light It s not something that the big clubs want the public to know about I doubt that anyone purchasing this book would be disappointed There are passages which make you want to laugh out loud even if you are reading in a public place and others which bring you close to tears It s a wonderful read, for anyone interested in football, irrespective of whether your remember Paul Lake as a player or not.

  3. Simon S. Simon S. says:

    I can remember the footballing summer of 1990 After half a decade of violence, isolation and tragic loss, a successful Italia 90 World Cup campaign had English football exuding, for the first time in years, a feeling of optimism Gazza s Tears and all that Even Manchester City fans had something to look forward to, the development of our of own Golden Generation, led by young club captain Paul Lake.Lakey has just missed out on Bobby Robson s England World Cup squad, but his development as a player and leader had seem him elevated to the captaincy I was living in Germany, but a summer trip home meant I could watch City in their first two games of that new season A 1 3 loss at Paul Gascoigne s Spurs flattered the home team, followed by a tense 1 0 home win against Everton the following week Lake had been excellent in both games, and it seemed certain he would be part of City s and England s future ThenThis book, co authored by Lake s wife Jo, charts his development as a footballer and a young man, and then, the pivotal moment in the third game of that 1990 season, when he injured his knee against Aston Villa At this point, a promising career starts to disintegrate, as Lake takes his first unsuspecting steps on the slippery slope towards loss of a career, and ultimately, of his physical and mental well being Older City fans will find echoes of Colin Bell s story in Lake s efforts to recover from serious injury compounded by indifferent rehabilitation efforts and support from the club, but the difference seems to me to be that players from the earlier eras of the game would not have been as honest with both their readers, and themselves, about the emotional cost and effect on their mental health The Lakes bravely take on the stigma of depression and crisis, and the story is the powerful for that.As fans, we yearn for the Happy Ending Lake s story to date has one, due to his hard work and the support of his family and the professionals looking after his physical and mental rehabilitation, and the seismic changes at the club that had employed and then discarded him The fans never forgot, and for them, Lakey s story should temper those feelings of loss when it was clear we d never see him on the pitch again This is the modern football autobiography.