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Eighteen isn t too young to run your life into the ground, but it s not too old to fix it, either The desire for change drives Willa Kirk from St John s, Newfoundland back to hometown of Smiths Falls, Ontario, away from her mistakes and the place where her sister died She s looking for a place to settle and rebuild, but Jem Harper just wants to get out of town, back to the life he knew before cancer By letting the tragedies in their lives define them, they are both dying a little every day Welcome to the wake The book had my emotions going up and down There are not many books that i finish and then after, feel emotionally exhausted i can probably count the ones that do, on one handlove, humour, sex, self harm, euthanasia, dying, grieving, drugsWake not only has a gritty storyline but it is witty, moving and beautifully written the different perspectives of the same days of the week provide different perspectives of the main characters Jem and Willa What i love about both characters is t The book had my emotions going up and down There are not many books that i finish and then after, feel emotionally exhausted i can probably count the ones that do, on one handlove, humour, sex, self harm, euthanasia, dying, grieving, drugsWake not only has a gritty storyline but it is witty, moving and beautifully written the different perspectives of the same days of the week provide different perspectives of the main characters Jem and Willa What i love about both characters is that neither of them hold back from when they first met both Jem and Willa throw abuse at each other back and forth i loved how this book had a funny side as well as a very serious side at times though i started to resent the characters only to fall in love with them all over again what i liked about willa at the beginning was her stubbornness for not caring about what anyone thinks about her, and her recklessness i liked her snideness and her rudeness then i began to not like her for all these things as it seemed to cause nothing but hurt for her and jem what i loved about jem, was his romantic side and his vulnerable side even though he was so self conscious, he dealt with his illness very bravely, and didn t want to give up of course feeling sorry for jem was to be expected especially everything he went through but at times i wanted to shout at him and tell him to man up i think he lack of self esteem obviously has a lot to do with his illness and they way people treat him willa is exactly what jem needed and vice versa before each other they were a mess but together eventually they cleaned one another up Five stars xxx I m not invisible I have desires I want to be touched and held and told that I m worth something I am not pitiful I am better than you can imagine I have talents I have successes and failures I love my life I sometimes feel dissatisfied with the world I come from a place of love, not death I am special I matter I can be the most interesting person in the room I can blend in and that s okay I m somebody I m a nobody I feel deeply and I want to be allowed to show it I don t want I m not invisible I have desires I want to be touched and held and told that I m worth something I am not pitiful I am better than you can imagine I have talents I have successes and failures I love my life I sometimes feel dissatisfied with the world I come from a place of love, not death I am special I matter I can be the most interesting person in the room I can blend in and that s okay I m somebody I m a nobody I feel deeply and I want to be allowed to show it I don t want to be judged I can be judgmental When you give me platitudes and you belittle my feelings I m brave I m scared I m wandering I have plans I will be the best me I can be I am not who I think I am I am not who you think I am I am who I think you think I am, so think well of me, please First let me say before anyone goes out and buys Wake that you please be very patient with this one It s a very, very long book But it s an absolutely beautiful read Jem is a eighteen year old going through cancer remission Jem got cancer a week after he moved to a new town and school Jem has no friends and everyone is standoffish towards him because he is the cancer boy afraid he is going to drop at any moment Jem is tried, and not the perfect, handsome, out going kid he once was It s an every day struggle with the pain plus to make it to school and seat there lonely Besides his sweet little sister Elise is there for him I adored his sister and all the milk shakes that she makes him and her Harry Potter obsessions You worry so much for such a young man, she says You always were like that and old soul, I guess Then he meets Willa his Social Studies partner Willa also a back ground with dealing with cancer Her sister died of cancer She is an angry, flat out blunt, depressed girl But Willa has her own secrets Willa is struggling with not going back to her dark past You re a ginger Kirk Oh you poor soulless bastard The bickering back and forth between Jem and Willa is hilarious Willa is not scared to talk or touch Jem, she treats him like an actual person I love how Willa takes great care of Jem, she makes him wonderful and sounds delicious soups that he can eat Willa treats Jem too good You can t love someone if you don t really know them And if you can t love them at their darkest momentsyou just can t love them, period It s heart wrenching I loved the different POV s that I got, I love how at that moment of time I get the feelings from other family members Jem has a amazing family they are all full of heart.Even though this book is long as hell I am glad I read it, but you get to see the day in and day out of what all these characters go through It makes it worth it so muchGreat job Abria Mattina Wake by Abria Mattina was a free book offered for the Kindle, which I grabbed since I m always interested in readingself published books, especially young adult Wake has received positive reviews for the most part, and this is a heavily, emotional young adult novel that s writtenan adult audience than a teen one There s a great deal of adult language, aka cursing, no fade to black love scenes and a lot of talk about dying, euthanasia and death Wake has a great deal to recommend fo Wake by Abria Mattina was a free book offered for the Kindle, which I grabbed since I m always interested in readingself published books, especially young adult Wake has received positive reviews for the most part, and this is a heavily, emotional young adult novel that s writtenan adult audience than a teen one There s a great deal of adult language, aka cursing, no fade to black love scenes and a lot of talk about dying, euthanasia and death Wake has a great deal to recommend for it but there are many cons I have, including a big, big issue that unfortunately ruined my reading experience when I found out where this story evolved from Wake has many POVs, here, but starts out with the POVs from the two main characters Jem, the male protagonist is recovering from cancer and is still dealing with the side effects of his illness His family is very supportive of him, including his younger sister Elise who is very protective of Jem and makes him homemade milkshakes, the only thing he can keep down Because Jem missed too many days of school because of his cancer, he has stayed back a year He s not thrilled about going back to school because he s still very sick He can t eat correctly, lost a great deal of weight that makes him look skeletal and is bald He feels like a freak and everyone treats him with kid gloves He just wants to be a normal teenage boy again but his body stops him for doing so During his Social Studies class, Jem is partnered up with a new girl, Willa He and Willa don t hit it off right away Jem wants to be left alone but for some reason Willa sneaks into his thoughts and he decides to give her a chance and see if they can be friends Willa on the other hand isn t sure what to think of Jem She s really not interested in being friends with him or anyone else at her new school She now lives with her older brother since she can t live with her parents, especially with her mother who can barely look or talk to her Willa is hiding a big secret that has to do with the death of her sister who also died from cancer She seems to understand what Jem is going through and goes out of her way to make him soup like she did with her sister to help him gain weight, including establishing a relationship with him, although she doesn t want to rely on Jem too much because there s a possibility his cancer could come back and he could die.Jem starts to fall in love with Willa and wants to break down those emotional walls she has put up around her Most of the time she drives him crazy and they end up fighting and screaming and not talking to one another for days But eventually they come back to one another because of the bond they have created Then Willa takes a chance and tells Jem her dark secret, which causes Jem to lash out at her where she almost falls into a destructive behavior that could destroy not only herself but Jem who feels the only reason he can keep living is because of Willa.Wake does hit you hard Abria doesn t hold back any punches, especially with Jem and what he goes through because of his cancer For the most part, Jem s illness was handled wonderfully and I do wish there wereYA type books with the POV from the primary male character I adored Jem and everything he stood for I rooted for him to get better and wanted him to live a full and happy life I loved Jem s relationship with his family, but his sister Elisa is unrealistic because she acts much younger than she is She s a sixteen year old who actslike a pre teen or perhaps even younger and she had a very grating personality.I couldn t stand Willa The way she acts is a big contradiction most of the time and the twist regarding her sister fell flat for me, as well as the constant fighting, and tension for tension sake between Jem and her was incredibly annoying At times I felt these two were perfect for one another, but then something would happen and I wanted to smack them and tell them to search elsewhere for satisfaction Their relationship was a combustible one, but by the end I did believe their HEA, although the ending was too pat and sudden A big problem I had with Wake was the length It could have been cut by 100 or 150 pages Half way through there s too much head jumping and POVs that threw me out of the story and far too many secondary characters who don t seem to have any importance as a whole to the story There were also some actions and scenes that don t make sense and again don t bring any importance to the plot or help motivate Jem or Willa The language and sex is in your face, not watered down, but does have a sense of truthfulness to it The way Jem obsesses with sex and having sex with Willa is exactly what I would expect from a boy his age Even though this is considered a young adult novel, again with the situations, language and sex, it fitsof an adult audience Even though this is about teens, the subject matter is very adult There s a lot of cursing and many sexual situations, none fade to black that you usually find in young adult books When it comes to young adult books, IMO, I expect it to besubtle But again that s my opinion and a subjective view.I was ready to give Wake a B grade because I was engaged to a point, but as I was reading I found out a big WTF for me I had no idea this was former Twilight fan fiction Because of that I m lowering this a grade and can t recommend Wake to readers Some may think I m being mean and cruel as a reviewer, but my opinion about publishing fan fiction that has been posted on a fan fiction board, much like E.L James, among other authors where they make their money off their former fan fiction is very well known and one I don t agree with If I find out a book I ve read is former fan fiction that has been published, as is the case of most Twilight fan fiction being published these days, I will lower my grade, and so is the case with Wake.Wake has a lot to recommend for it but needs to be heavily edited and fixed to be acohesive story I can see there being a sequel As for reading that sequel if it does get written, I won t be reading it because after reading some excerpts of Dead on my Feet starring Edward and Bella as Jem and Willa, I ve become sour regarding Wake and will try to find other young adult fiction that isn t former Twilight fan fiction Was once Twilight fan fic called Dead on My Feet by Cesca Marie Can be read here Wow, Wake was wow Insanely long, but not long Sometimes books seem to drag on and on and you re just thinking When will this endeven if they are not long you still fell like they re huge Wake was actually long, but I just wantedandandBooks are small chapters of the characters lives Wake was many chapters for Willa and Jem and I loved it and I could easily read another book about them.I got to know the characters inside and out completely Their points of view, their p Wow, Wake was wow Insanely long, but not long Sometimes books seem to drag on and on and you re just thinking When will this endeven if they are not long you still fell like they re huge Wake was actually long, but I just wantedandandBooks are small chapters of the characters lives Wake was many chapters for Willa and Jem and I loved it and I could easily read another book about them.I got to know the characters inside and out completely Their points of view, their pasts, what haunts them and how they evolve Which was beautiful It was not a sad story, not at all it was tough, but not sad And the whole ending was great.From the moment I started the book, Jem s voice sucked me into the story and I was addicted Both Jem and Will had such strong voices and they were so so sofunny Lots and lots of swearing, but God, I don t think I ve ever laughed so much with a book Especially considering that every single joke here was dark and bittersweet And no matter how depressing the situation was, there was always some sarcastic bitter joke somewhere A Fantastic approach to a novel that revolves around a cancer patient.I highly Highly suggest you read Wake Won t regret it, and you ll be very satisfied You should do your best to read it slowly, savor each chapter, word and joke It s so worth it I LOVED this book I bow to author Abria Mattina She wrote and exceptional book, and I m still blown away by how good it was.Strong characters, fierce novel and a new favorite Wake is simply Amazing